This might be a ramble But I have nowhere else to turn. I’m a nanny and my boss just has baby number two today. I had an abortion in January. As soon as the father found out i was pregnant he disappeared and to this day i haven’t heard from him I did not want to but I had to bc I can’t afford to raise another child alone. Up until today I’ve dealt with my decision. Today I am a mess. Today I hate myself. Today I can only imagine what my baby’s face would of looked like. How their tiny toes would of curled. Today’s is hard and I don’t know how I’m going to get through this.