Ttc ADVISE PLEASEE

Hi, I’m ella. I’m ttc buts it’s really hard. Iv wanted to have a child for over a year now and o think about it constantly (multiple times a day) iv gotten a lot of hate on this app because of my age. But I am financially stable, and have a sturdy future plan. I actually planned on rasing the hold myself, with help of fainly but no father. I know I might seem selfish saying this but I cannot get the though out of my head. I also don’t have boyfriend. I have boys who are hook-up buddies but I would hate to trick them into getting me pregnant. I want to wait until I’m married, so I can my baby thw best future. But Itshonestly the only thing iv thought about in the past year and o can’t stop. No matter how many times I tell my self my child is honestly all I want right now