Vent-Strong language.

I am so discouraged. So fuckin discouraged. Took my 9th negative preggy test, and we've been unprotected for 2 months. I can't get pregnant to save my life but God help me-I'm over a week late, constantly crampy, discharge x1100 times more, and clear, almost like water. 
I am so sick of my roommate, who didn't want a baby, but low and behold, she's pregnant.
Took a pregnancy test Infront of her and my fiancé today and was so let down. Ugh. I hate this. I'm fuckin done. I'm sure I'm defective or some shit.