Goodbye marriage

I’m not looking for advice really just maybe ranting? To myself but want to post it anyways 🤷🏼‍♀️

I’m watching my marriage slip from my fingers right before my eyes.

He told me he wants to fix it tonight and I’m just so annoyed and upset I told him no and to go to bed and leave me alone.

I’m now sleeping on the couch and he’s in our bed.

I don’t even know what I want. He promises he will fix things and work harder on or marriage and it only works for about 3 days. Then we do this same process all over again. We’re both hard headed. He’s not all at fault here. I’m just done. I’m tired of fighting. I’m tired of working so hard for my marriage.

No one tells you how hard it will be. They may say marriage isn’t easy.. but I had no idea I would have to work at it every single day so hard. I am definitely not cut out to be a wife.

I’m so broken. All my life my dream was to be a perfect 50s housewife and be a mommy. That’s all I’ve wanted in life. I can’t even succeed in being a decent wife , I sure wouldn’t even attempt motherhood now 💔

I fail at everything I’ve ever attempted to do in my life. Now I’ve failed at my one lifelong dream 💔

I am just tired.

If anyone read this , please send a good thought my way 😭