Decisions

So my fiancé and I have been together for 7 years we both have 2 boys from outside relationships but he has raised mine since they were 4 and 6.

He has wanted me to have a baby for years now and I have finally decided to go with it only now it seems I can’t conceive🤦🏽‍♀️ so I travel for work and I am gone weeks at a time.

Well since I’ve been home I’ve been checking ovulation and made a appointment and deposit to see a fertility specialist for the both of us just to double check.

Today I had a strange feeling come over me which resulted in me asking him about where we stand and it lead to him stating why should he have to suffer and put his life on hold for me and my job and that I won’t even give him a baby.

Knowing that I made the appointment so now my question is should I just let it go and let him move on and cancel my appointment or what idk I’m so stuck between the 2.

I refuse to get the call of him being seen out with another woman and we’re engaged cause what would I say yes I know he wants to see other people.

This is so overwhelming someone help!!!