ER mental health

UPDATE:

They released me to go home I am feeling better. My bf well ex bf called me to tell me I broke his heart and that this is all my fault bc I’m almost 30 years old. And I deserve to feel this way bc I fucked up. But when I told him to either be in this or just get out of my life he couldn’t respond. I really hope we work out in the end, but he’s toxic to my mental health right now.

Well I went to the ER for my mental health, bc I couldn’t wait until next week. So far I’m on suicide watch even though I don’t want to kill myself. I just self harm, to the point of needing stitches. But now I’m just another person crying out for attention in their eyes. This was a mistake.