Is this weird

I’m in this weird mentality state where I finally have no anxiety but I’m still depressed. But I’m content. Like I don’t care if my depression goes away or not. Which really makes no sense to me at all.

Obviously I’d rather be myself and happy but something about me being depressed rn is ok with me.

I think maybe because I’m able to use my depression as an excuse to get out of things, my parents have stopped yelling at my about a lot of things, school as become optional (I try to go most days but my depression gets in the way sometimes).

As anyone ever experienced something like this? Or can tell me what’s going on? It might be obvious to u guys but for me I’m so extremely confused.