They come right before my period. The one that’s due next week. The one I hoped I wouldn’t get. But I feel like once again I’ve failed to get pregnant. Nearly 2 years. It hurts more and more every time that damn AF comes.

Those little twinges that seem so insignificant to my husband prove that I’m not pregnant long before a missed period.

I’m almost in tears. Will I ever get the child I so desperately want? With every month I feel like the universe is trying to keep it from me, keep me childless.

I don’t know what to do anymore.