I feel like I’m going crazy....

My husband and I have been together since 2015 and we recently got married this past September. I have a 5 year old daughter with another guy in which I had her two weeks before my 21st birthday. Fast word to now. January of 2018 during my period my husband got a promotion and came home and informed me by saying “you can stop your birth control” so instantly I threw it all away!

Our first shot (pun unintended) was February and I took test, 4 to be exact all negative despite I went 25 days late! Then I finally had a horrid period. March had a period and then now I would like to think this as our first official month trying since I finally had a period after not having one since January. I am due next week Thursday. In my excitement tested on my birthday, April 13 - negative. April 14 - negative. But I feel different. I’m heart broken.

I know we just started our journey but I have anxiety and like to be in control of my life. This I can’t be in control of. I feel pregnant but not sure its because I’m dying to be. I’ve had vivd dreams in which I took a test and it was positive. I don’t normally snore but I did while pregnant with my daughter, I’m snoring. I got sick to my stomach a few times and it was super random. Anyone else as frustrated as I am?