Pp depression

I recently (2 months ago) gave birth to a beautiful little girl who I love dearly but in the same case afraid to get too close to her. I love her, her smile is to die for but I feel so empty. My entire life as far as I can remember-which isnt great, I've had severe generalized anxiety and depression. I was warned there was a strong chance I have PP depression.

My pregnancy was incredibly rough. I feel like daily I was reminded I had one job, to grow the baby. Now that she's here I feel empty and worthless. I constantly compare myself to other moms and try so hard to stay home. I hate myself on a daily basis to the point where I can't even look at myself. I've told my husband that I feel like they are better off without me, that I only drag them down. While I have a ton of support with the baby I feel like a constant failure. She deserves a better mom than me and her father deserves a better wife than me.

Ive seen a therapist who literally doesn't do much. It's honestly a waste of my time to continue to go because she just talks about how I cry too much. How much longer will this feeling go on?

Because I have anxiety and depression I'm constantly at fear my daughter will have them too and that it is all my fault. I have no supportive friends, I've either lost my friends or they just pretend to care unless it's something about them.