I have never felt as low as I did this morning. I complained about my pants not fitting anymore and my boyfriend body shamed me worse than I ever have heard... He said that my rolls disgusted him and that's why we dont have sex anymore. He said that he was ashamed to go anywhere in public with me and I am an embarrassment. That I talk about losing weight but I shove a muffin in my fat mouth. That I was already fat when he met me but now I'm morbidly obese. And now that I'm pregnant, I'm just going to become more of a cow. I look like one of the "people of Walmart". I would NEVER ever hurt myself but in that moment, I wished I was dead. I'm 13 weeks pregnant. This is my 3rd child so it's kind of expected for me to show early. I just really hate myself right now. He said he was sorry... but I just can't erase those words from my head. I know I should lose 75 lbs, but "people of walmart"? Am I really that disgusting?