Ready to just give up :(

Amanda • Proud Mother and Wife to my little family
I know a lot of people here struggle too, how do you find the energy and strength to try again and again after every month of disappointment? 
It's been two years, it's been thousands in doctors visits to fix my hypothyroidism, my PCOS and get the insulin resistance under control. Its been an unsuccessful IUI, it's been medicines and shots and so many machines up my lady parts all to say the same thing... "Everything looks text book perfect! You just don't ovulate"
So I take medicine to ovulate. Then they find out my husband has low sperm count. Not "clinically low" but low.
"Keep trying! It'll happen" they say. Except it hasn't. Two years and nothing.
This was the first month I missed my period. I'm almost two weeks late and was so hopeful this was it. 
Two BFNs later and I can't keep seeing the heartbreak in his face when I tell him no. 
Still don't have my period, hubby keeps reminding me we're not out of the game just yet but I can't bring myself to be hopeful that a blood test would say any different 😢
How do you girls do it? I just... Am ready to give up 😔
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Ja

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IVF for sure quit doing this to yourself. People spend money on a lot less significant things. 

Eh

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To be honest. I look at my husband and remember all the fun and Joy we had before ttc. I still get upset we have been trying for a year and a half, but I look at him and tell myself that a baby will add Joy to our lives but the baby will grown into a kid, then a teen, the move out and become adults and leave. In the end my husband will be with me. Babies are wonderful but trying to have one should NEVER and I mean NEVER take away the joy and love for each other. Now I am not saying you can't cry and be upset about this. I am just telling you that loving each other and the time you have together is important. Also it helps me relax and destress over things when I cuddle with him on the sofa to watch our TV shows. I know and understand completely what you are feeling, but if you can't stay positive while trying for a baby how will you stay positive when they are up all night and you have little to know sleep and all you want to do is scream(my mom told me this, it took my father and mom a year and a half to get pregnant) just take a deep breath look at your SO and love the time of your life you are in right now. Just so you know I was text book perfect with no ovulation as well. I have now ovulated twice in the last two months after I decided that my love for my husband was more important then that BFP. I had to destress your body is very sensitive to stress and won't work properly tell you take a step back and destress. I know it's hard but trust me about the stress (we have done iui ivf and meds and nothing worked) take a month or two off of trying and spend time loving on your SO. I wish all the baby dust to you! Good luck and never give up on your dream of having a family!

Ta

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Your not the only one that's ready to just give up, am there too. My hubby and I have been trying for 3 years now. I don't have PCOS though I have serval pasleys but I just have it my legs. What I say to myself is not to give up, to keep trying! Keep a positive adduite is what I say to myself. And keep your head up.. 

Li

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Honestly I just fast tracked it to ivf because I knew couldn't keep handling the failed IUIs etc. We were like you, sent to RE because I didn't ovulate and then found out DH had low count :( double whammy. We put him on meds for months and got his number up some so the doc would let us do IUI. But after the first IUI we decided to just move on to IVF instead of doing additional rounds of IUI like we originally planned. Fortunately it worked and I'm pregnant now, but we made the decisions we did because I didn't want to get to the point where I felt so hopeless I actually wanted to give up. I can't tell you what to do, but that was our experience and I'm so glad to be on the other side of it now. Good luck!