D&C with twins at 9 weeks

UPDATE

Guys so this morning i went in for my first OBG appointment. As if i was there i started spotting with cloths. I immediately informed my Gynecologist he told me i have to get an ultrasound done.

When i went in for my ultrasound I couldn’t see any heartbeat i right away knew my twin A wasn’t developing the way it should be. I started crying at the waiting room to get the confirmation from my Gynecologist...

When he called me in he confirmed it and told me i was indeed having a miscarriage and was miscarrying both Twin A and B. Im so hopeless and sad i have had a missed miscarriage before.

Doctor gave me 3 options either wait for it to naturally let it happen or take the Pills or a D&C; i have done the pills before and NEVER again! It was very painful and i was dying of pain!

So ofcourse i went for the D&C; it was my very first time I didn’t know what to expect i was so sad and cried so much all i needed was my mother which is 8 hours by flight away from me😪

I only have my hsuband here and he was very very helpful and supportive so proud of him! But without him I would’ve committed suicide! I swear to god. Im only 22 and going through this is very though.

So when i got back from my D&C; back to my room i was half a sleep (of course) I noticed the pain and asked for painkillers at first they gave me a tylenol told the lady this is not helpful at all. They gave me a morphine instead. The feeling i had..... haha im not bleeding much at all and they said they cleaned everything i have to go back for a check up

But yeah i am so very upset i just feel like giving up on this TTC i have no problem getting pregnant but keeping a baby which i believe is even worse... i cant go through a 3rd miscarriage i just mentally cant anymore!

Any one that been through this and can or want to talk about this?