Want To Be Pregnant Again 😩

Whyyyyy do I want to be pregnant again?!?! 😂😩 we just had our first 6 months ago via c section and I know it’s not recommended and we WILL wait until the recommended 18 months to prevent any and all issues as possible before we start trying to get pregnant again but I just can’t curb these feelings! We originally wanted to wait until our first baby was around 4 and I can’t believe I even want to put myself through that again we had the most difficult pregnancy. We lost one of our babies (twins), I was in the hospital for almost 3 months, baby spent about two months in the hospital. I was sick the whole time it was just crazy! I never wanted to be pregnant again EVER and here I am wanting to get pregnant again. Other people ask when baby will have another sibling and it just makes me want it more. I love my baby so much! How do I curb these feelings? 😩