What the heck happened to my body?

Can I just vent for a minute?

Idk how I went so long without looking in a mirror but I did today.

Holy crap! Wtf happened to my body?! I’ve never been this fat and out of shape. I’m so disgusted and disappointed but most of all in disbelief that things got this bad. My husband said I needed to cut myself slack because I just had a baby a month ago but I can’t. I’m so mad at myself. So upset. So grossed out. So... idk what else!

I literally want to crawl out of my own skin I’m so repulsed. I’ve been looking at what I can do to drop the weight fast but I’m nursing. I don’t want to affect my milk supply.

I’m really hating myself right now