Scared

I haven’t taken a test yet. I know it sounds very stupid to have not tested by now. I’m convinced that I’m pregnant and I’m just too scared to accept it or tell anyone. Idk what to do. I don’t have anyone to talk to about this. I’m so scared and I cry every day. I have symptoms of a missed period for two months and my stomach is very bloated. I don’t have any other symptoms other than these. Idk if I psyched myself out into thinking I am or what. I look 4 months because of the bloating. My jeans are so tight and I’m so uncomfortable. I know you will say to test but I’m terrified. I wish I had someone to be there while I do. I don’t want this and I just want to hide and run. I’m not sure what I’m wanting from this post other than venting. 😑