Is what it is

Most days I don’t feel the stress of us wanting to add another little to our family but here lately it has been rough. Hubs had his reversal in December so just starting our 5th cycle. I know we are not far into this but it has its moments. He had his procedure with a dr 2 hours away so, starting contacts to find a closer lab to get his analysis ordered. We weren’t going to do one but both have felt the sadness of not having a positive yet and decided to go ahead. What is the point of the journey of you don’t know there is a chance of success? We either need the hope that it will happen in time or that there is no chance and just mourn the baby we won’t have. Sorry just needed to vent. Have a friend that I somewhat talk to other than hubs but she is pregnant so I don’t want her to feel bad because it was quick and easy for them and not us. Just hard to have balance between hope of it happening and a guard for the disappointment at the same time. Now rambling so...thank you!