I want to be done and move on

I'm so tired of feeling this way. I'm so tired of loving someone so much and getting nothing in return. I feel like I'm going crazy. He doesn't even want to be with me or love me... he fucks so many other girls but strings me along. Every time I get the courage to be done he makes me feel insane for feeling so awful. How can I love someone who gives me anxiety attacks and has me losing sleep wondering what he's out there doing...

Dude I love him. I've tried to show him every way possible. The only time he wants me is when I'm acting like I don't want him and I don't want the games. I know I need to know my worth but wtf am I suppose to do when the feelings are so real. I feel like a weak ass bitch... constantly letting him make me feel this way. I can't even have social media bc I lurk so much that it breaks my heart more and more. I never knew I could hurt this bad and feel this stuck.

all day I think about him and wonder about us and over think and drive myself to be crazy. He probably doesn't even think about me.

It's been years of this and I can't cut him off because we raise a child together. I feel like shit