Why does no one talk about how hard motherhood is

I don’t know if I have PPD or if all of this is just normal but I’m finding motherhood to be completely draining and honestly not as enjoyable as I thought it would be.

My daughter is 5 months old and I love her so fiercely it hurts, but I also find myself wishing I didn’t have to be a mom anymore. I miss sleeping in and being selfish and going to restaurants and I never got to go on a hot vacation and I just miss my old life. But I never want to live in a world where my baby doesn’t exist, because she is literally a part of me. It’s such a horrible mix of emotions and I’m just so tired and feel so guilty for feeling this way.

My daughter is NOT an easy baby. She cries so much. Taking her out is a chore but I try to do it anyway, but I always just feel so defeated because she just ends up screaming. Other moms I see with their happy babies out and about make it look so easy. If other moms feel this way they certainly hide it very well.

Nothing gets done in my house, my baby demands all of my attention. During her brief naps I manage to keep the dishes and the laundry clean but that’s basically it. Nothing ever really gets cleaned and there’s stuff everywhere. Nothing is organized or put away like I used to have it. I feel like I’m really failing at this.

Please tell me someone else feels this way.