Something feels different in an emotional type of way

A lot has been going on today, a wedding, my grandma in declined health, no period, pissed off and annoyed and mixed emotions, and graduation. My period was suppose to be the 30th to the 6th and nothing, only really bled after having rough sex which was after my period date. Went to a wedding where I wasn't really feeling it, and people I graduated high school with are now leaving college and I'm not. I dropped out sophomore year and been doing my own thing but it's been bothering me a bit. And on top of that the nurse told my parents my grandma could go tonight so it's been eventful. My boyfriend says it's the Universe shifting and I know it's wrong to want something out of it, but I wish I would find out I was having a kid soon. I've been waiting so long and nothing, I just want a positive after all this meh