The Scale

I’ve had an addiction that I’ve kept to myself for a while but I feel like I need to share because I feel it will end bad for me. I am addicted to seeing the number on the scale when I weigh myself. I weigh myself so many times each day and am never satisfied. I am sometimes tempted to just starve myself of a couple of meals or that snack I really want but always end up convincing myself otherwise. I’m scared that one day I’ll let my mind take over and I will start to starve myself. I currently weigh on a range of 103 lbs - 109 lbs depending on how much I eat that day. Last year I was in the 90s and felt so much better about myself. I know I am a healthy weight but I’ve always gotten comments from my family and friends on how skinny I am but now it’s more comments on me getting fat and it is starting to get to my head. I really just don’t know what to do. I’ve tried working out to keep a steady weight and at least tone up a bit but all I hear from family is how fat I’m getting/ going to get. I also cut out all the fast food I love and stoped drinking so much soda. I just don’t want me family to be right. I use to love my body but now I’m that 16 year old that just pains from seeing it grow.