I’m so lost

My and my husband argue frequently. I know it’s not healthy. But I just need to vent honestly. We got into it last night. I begged him to stop and leave me alone because I needed to calm down. He didn’t. I was talking shit about his dad because he has a bad past and I was talking my feelings out. He shoved me against your headboard. It’s one of those old beds with the metals poles. Anyway I hit my head. So I punched him. He instantly became violent and punched me on the cheek bone. He’s also been messaging other women still. I love him. But where do I go to find marriage help. Please no judgement.