I can’t go on any longer

So I went for my 8 week ultrasound and they couldn’t find the baby. All they saw was the gestational sac. No baby no yoke no nothing.

They sent me to the hospital to get a second opinion and they said same thing. I’m literally hurting right now. I haven’t stopped crying today. My chest hurts, and I can’t really breath....

I don’t understand why my body keeps failing me. I don’t understand why I can’t carry another baby! I don’t understand why this keeps happening. If this pregnancy is like they say this will be my 5th failed pregnancy.....

I told my SO that if this pregnancy fails, I don’t want to get pregnant again. I wouldn’t be able to handle this again. I literally want to die right now. I have a physical pain in my chest.... I’m not bleeding nor am I having an abnormal cramping. I just don’t know...

I think it upset my SO when I told him that because he would be an amazing dad, but I can’t put myself through this again.... I can’t do this.... I just want to die....