Scared

I found out I'm pregnant again a few days ago, and up until this point I've been so happy and positive. I've had 5 miscarriages and one missed miscarriage. I have a 4 year old son so I know I can do this, but I just feel so helpless. There's this tiny life inside of me, with the odds stacked against him or her and there's nothing I can do except see what happens. My first scan is 21st July and seems so far away. Every time I go to the bathroom I brace myself for the worst. My friend wants me to go shopping with her, my mum needs my help with her housework (she has a disability), and all I really want to do is stand perfectly still in case something goes wrong. I must sound crazy. Please let me keep my baby ❤️