Never good when your doc says, “Idk”

Little back story: I lost a baby in November at 14 weeks to Trisomy 2. We’ve been trying to get pregnant again since then and finally managed it in April.

I went in for my first US at 7 weeks (early because I’m technically high risk). A heartbeat was detected but it was low at 110. My doc told me to come in the following week to see how things were progressing. I went in today and while I’m supposed to be only 7w3d, the baby measured at 8w which is ahead of schedule and good news (so said my doc). The problem is that the heart rate is still at 110 which is low for where I am. Basically my doc said, “I don’t know what to make of that since the baby is growing exactly as, if not better than, it should be.” She scheduled me to see the high-risk doctor within the month and said basically now it’s a waiting game, which is so incredibly frustrating.

Just wanted to give a shout out to all you ladies out there who, like me, are control freaks struggling with this lack of control and who are also terribly impatient. It fucking sucks, this waiting-and-not-knowing game. It just really really does.