Opinions needed... *trigger warning: sexual assault**

Sorry this will a long post!

Backstory: I met this guy through mutual college friends. They had all been best friends since high school. The guy and I flirted at parties and stuff but never actually texted outside those occasions. Well about 2 years ago, we all rented a cabin for New Year’s eve. We brought alcohol and there was a hot tub at the cabin. When I was sober, before he got there, I mentioned how I wouldn’t be opposed to kissing him that night. But I wasn’t 100% sure about it, I just was feeling the New Years vibe going around. Well I started drinking, he showed up, and we were flirting and stuff as usual. Once he started pouring my drinks, things got really fuzzy really fast. I don’t know if he was just pouring them strong or what. Well we all moved to the hot tub and continued drinking, which didn’t help the fuzzy situation. I remember drinking in the hot tub, someone daring us to kiss, him coming at me tongue first, and then everything else is blank. I woke up the next morning with a sore vagina, blood blisters on my ears, and 3 BLACK huge hickies on my neck. It was horrible. I was in tears, scared, and hung over. The first thing my friend asked me was, “you aren’t going to claim he sexually assaulted or raped you, right? I hate when girls do that. You mentioned earlier in the night you wanted to kiss him so you wanted it.” So she convinced me that I’d be a terrible person if I claimed assault. I laid in bed all day and cried. I felt embarrassed and gross. I don’t remember anything. I didn’t drink an ounce of alcohol the rest of the tip. When midnight struck on New Years, he wanted to kiss me but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. I ended up kissing the dog. I isolated myself the rest of the trip. My friend kept reminding me the whole 3 hours home that he didn’t do anything wrong and she glad I’m not overreacting about the whole thing. I told the story a year later to other friends and they said it was definitely assault. I just don’t know what to think about it anymore. What do you guys think? Was it assault or am I just overreacting? I’m not going to do anything about it at this point, but I just want it straight in my head, you know? If you read this far, in extremely grateful! I know that post was long. Thank you for your comments!