were pregnant

so wow not a shocker At all but i feel hopeless i dont even know why my fifth baby and im not happy im.not sad im not exicted im just worried i hate the feeling i wish i could feel happy about this baby i know they say babys are a blessing but i just really feel like im going to let this baby down too yes i have four yes i am in their lives im not al that involved because of work but i try to be there you know i feel like the mom thats not there but therr.. i feel like they will all be mad at moms having another baby maybe dissapointed i dont know i just feel like they wont approve its crazy being their mom and wanting them to be ok with this too but i dont want them to feel like oh so shes not here for us but she will be for the baby i dont know man i just really wish someone could help you know just maybe give some advice