Prenatal depression and anxiety 😭

I’m pregnant (15 weeks tomorrow) and struggling with depression and anxiety. I don’t have any friends (one that lives a few hours away) and I don’t work anymore. My boyfriend is not supportive. He says I complain too much and should get a hobby. He wants me to call a therapist but I’ve seen one in the past and it didn’t help. I’m against going on medicine, especially while pregnant. I was put on 3 types of medication for this same reason when I was 15 and it made me feel nothing at all. I’d rather feel happy sometimes than feel nothing all the time. Before I got pregnant I had a medical marijuana card for depression and anxiety but obviously had to stop when I got pregnant. I live by the beach but I don’t want to go there by myself. All my hobbies before I got pregnant were athletic things- weightlifting (I was a personal trainer), wakeboarding, etc. I can’t weightlift because of a subchorionic hemmorage. I sit at home all day watching Netflix. I used to be really adventurous and outgoing. I miss having friends, and being able to do things. I hate the way I look now that I’m pregnant, and I don’t know what to do with myself. I’m just so lonely and sad and bored all the time. I don’t know why, I finally got pregnant which is what I wanted. I just wish I had people there for me and could enjoy this pregnancy.