Can’t stop crying

I’m so upset back story first. I met my fiancé when I was young 15 I am still young but I dropped out of school I moved in with him , and at points I am the happiest woman alive I’m getting married this year. And hopefully starting my family which is the only thing I have wanted for sure my whole life. Well I just seen my graduating class im sitting here sobbing because I didn’t get to walk the stage with my friends or probably at all, I am so upset with myself I worked hard for years I was bullied . In the “slow classes” for my extreme ADHD . I feel so gutted that I dropped out and I know it’s all my fault but when I left my life behind I was on the verge of killing myself my father has just told me I’m a waste of skin and a dirty whore . So I ran and I’m so disappointed in myself 😢😭 . I wanted to be a wildlife officer I will never be that now , I know I can but I won’t . My family took my college fund . . Sorry for the rant if I tell my fiancé he just blames himself and I try explaining that without him I would probably be dead anyways but he Just feels awful.