Miscarried and no support network..

So I had been getting a mixture of positive and negative pregnancy tests at home. My initial blood work indicated I was pregnant. Second blood test 2 weeks later indicated it was progressing correctly. Third blood work was extremely skewed and early today I began feeling horrific cramps and I’ve begun bleeding heavily. I saw my GP and she confirmed through my tests and symptoms I’m experiencing I’ve miscarried.

I’m only 18 and it wasn’t my nor my partner’s ideal plan to have a baby at this age. But I would’ve been 9 weeks along at the beginning of next week and we finally were getting used to the idea of it. We were even preparing ourselves for having to break the news to our parents and which close friends we want to tell.

My partner was quite upset (he seemed to warm up to the idea of having a child far better than I did). I was upset as well, but at the moment I’m just in too much pain to focus on much.

I was really upset about it earlier and decided I might reach out for support from one of my female friends. My partner and I are a part of the same friendship group, I’m the only female in the group. This girl I reached out to isn’t a part of this group but I’ve been friends with the girl for 10 years. I messaged her because I was far too upset to call. About 15 minutes later she read my message and hasn’t messaged me back, in fact she didn’t acknowledge it at all besides leaving it on ‘read’. This was hours and hours ago now, and I know she isn’t busy because she was just talking to me before I sent the message.

I know my partner is here to support me, but I just feel so alone in this that it’s overwhelming. I’m chronically ill and it was predicted I might lose my fertility by the time I’m 20 because of my medications. The prognosis of my condition isn’t positive either and this miscarriage has just made all these things fresh in my mind again.