I WANT A BABY SO BAD / Vent session. Please read

I already know im going to be judged off of this post lol but honestly idc. I WANT A BABY SO BAD. Im only 21 but I really do want a child and have wanted one ever since i found out I had PCOS at 16. I tried with my first ex at 18 who was an idiot and mentally abusive. Finally got out of that relationship and met my second ex at 20 who I recently found out cheated on me. We had been trying for around 3 months at that time. It broke my heart and now the only reason im considering taking him back is to get pregnant. Sadly enough i was upfront and told him this hoping he would just move on but he actually said “thats fine, i love you so much and dont want to lose you” We’ve been to doctors together to discuss getting pregnant (when we were together) & ive been on medicine to help me ovulate but I honestly dont love him like i use to anymore and feel like it would be kind of crazy to have a baby with him since I literally cant see myself taking him back for any other reason. I know majority of you are probably reading this like “this bih crazy” lmao. Sometimes i feel crazy too but put yourself in my shoes. With pcos, you never know how long it may take and one of my biggest goals in life is to be a mother. I will do whatever it takes to make that possible which is why I’ve lost 100 pounds & have been serious about my health and fitness. I want to be somebodys wife one day, i dont want baby daddy drama... i want all my kids to be mine & my husbands but lately I’ve been feeling like I dont even care I just want a baby. So please ladies, guys, whoever... just give me some feed back. Please dont be rude or nasty. I am only human and just feeling very down today. Thank you for reading my story. Vent session over!

Oh & my 2nd ex & I have not been having sex recently. We are still broken up and on decent terms.