Really need encouragement/support

I’m a SAHM and hubby owns his own business and even if he doesn’t have a job scheduled for that day, he is not the type of person to just sit around the house. My job is literally taking care of the baby and housework... It’s so frustrating that he gets to come home from work and not do anything and just relax while I’m on the clock 24/7. If hubby is home, I have to specifically ask/tell him to do certain things for our son. And it’s to the point where I don’t even ask him to do stuff anymore because I’m just so fed up (and pretty stubborn/hard-headed).

We recently went on “vacation” with my family. It wasn’t even a vacation for me. I was still taking care of our son 24/7, while my husband was up all hours of the night spending time with my family. No relaxation for this momma at all.

And right now is just a particularly rough patch because the baby won’t sleep unless he’s on me or next to me. And he’s only taking 25-30 min naps. Plus, he’s already crawling and mobile. And is going through a separation anxiety phase. So I can’t just leave him to play because he’ll scream and cry and/or get into everything. I’m getting absolutely NOTHING done around the house. It’s a complete mess. I feel like I’m failing.

I’m just at the end of my rope. I love my son and am so glad I am able to be home with him, but I feel like a single mom. And I didn’t sign on for that. We had this baby together. We should be raising him together.

Okay, rant over. Sorry. I don’t really have any friends (and definitely no momma friends) so I don’t have anyone I can just vent to about this stuff.