Losing my mind

So today my period is late one day, I’m afraid to take a hpt because I can’t handle a BFN right now. My husband & I got into a huge blow out 4 days ago & he’s staying at a hotel right now. He comes by to check on me & take me to work but we’re barely speaking. We’ve been trying to conceive for 6 months but during that blow out he said hurtful things about being thankful for the pregnancy fails & not wanting another baby with me anyway. I know he said it to hurt me because he was hurt but it seriously did hurt me & I can’t stop thinking about it. I really want another baby, our son will be 3 this year. Smh I seriously feel like I’m losing my mind. I will end up taking the test tomorrow tho & although I pray it’s positive I really don’t know what’s going to be the outcome of telling my husband.