Decisions decisions

Okay, so I’m almost 20 and still a virgin, I kinda want it to be over with now. Every time I’ve been seeing a guy I’ve always broke it off before I’ve had sex with them or before things have got more serious (commitment issues 😂) but I’ve been debating whether to message the last guy I was seeing so I can have sex with him😂 I don’t know what to do bc I’m afraid he’ll get feelings again and that’s not what I’m after right now