Stigma attached to pain management

I am so tired of being treated like a second class citizen and a druggie by medical professionals. The same people that swore the Hippocratic Oath upon becoming doctors to not allow anyone to suffer unnecessarily. I am an educated, hard-working single mother of two who happens to suffer from two chronic, painful, incurable and debilitating diseases. One of my diagnosis is what is referred to as an "invisible illness" but my primary condition is very much visible and horrific. It is honestly the stuff nightmares are made of and I wouldn't wish it on even my worst enemy. If it wasn't for my children I would have taken my life long ago because suffering this pain with no relief or quality of life is inhumane. I spend my life at about a 6-7 on the pain scale every single hour of every single day and that's with pain medication. To put this into perspective, most people go to the doctor at a 2-3 and to the ER at a 5 on this scale. Without it, the pain is a full 10 and I cannot function at all. I do the best I can, I work full-time and go to school for my masters and maintain a 3.8 gpa. My doctors don't know this about me because they don't even care to ask, they just treat you like a drug abuser and shame you for taking pain meds. I've only had one doctor in the 10 years I've had these diagnosis that has been 100% on my side and has treated me like an actual human being that he cares about. He asked me questions that no other doctor ever bothered to ask, he got to know me and he trusts me implicitly. I can come to this man with any disability paperwork or medication requests and he knows he doesn't have to fight it, question it or even look at the papers, he just signs it. Unfortunately my insurance changed and I moved an hour away so I had to get new doctors. Back to square one and being abused by medical professionals. I have had to be my own health advocate for so long and I'm so tired of fighting. There is nothing holistic that works or helps in terms of changing what I eat, believe me, I've tried it all in hopes of restoring some sort of quality of life. It's just one of those things that is progressive and persistent and doesn't effect enough of the population to warrant any research dollars. Most doctors have to Google it because they don't even know what my diagnosis is. They just look at me with blank stares and try to mask that they have no idea what I'm talking about or showing them. Feeling hopeless and defeated all while two little faces are looking at you to be their mother is one of the worst feelings I've ever experienced.