I Messed Up 😭🙈

Tonight my boyfriend came over with a bag of treats from Japan (his sister just got home from visiting). He was all cute and cuddly... and my anxiety just couldn’t let it be nice. I ended up being totally quite and having mini panic attacks the entire 1 1/2 hours he was here. I feel so broken 😞

I feel so awful right now and like I should breakup with him because I just cannot control my anxiety. I can’t stop it and keep it from making things be harder then they should be.

We have been best friends for 5 years and dating 1 year 7 months... I love him so much. I hate to put him through this.

Should I take a step back? Is it unfair to him for me to be anxious like this?