Complicated friendship/relationship

So this guy and I started working together as it was a new restaurant and we had to train together (and all the other employees) for 8+ hours everyday before we opened and we grew very close, very fast. We were both in long distant relationships and we weren’t very happy. We texted and snap chatted every day and one day he asked to go hangout with him. He would call me beautiful and pretty.. He invited me to his uncles house to drink with him and I said okay and my boyfriend at the time was hesitant on it but he allowed me to because he trusts me. We started drinking and what not and we were on a hill at a shed and the house was down the hill where the bathroom is, so being the person I am, I pee a lot when I drink. When I started getting a little tipsy and needed to pee he would hold my hand down the hill and that happened a couple times and I was okay with that because let’s be honest I would’ve fell.. then one time I decided to go pee he came with me and he was scared i was going to fall so he picked me up and carried me, like my legs around his waist and me facing him. He put me down and in the bathroom I started throwing up and he cane in there and held my hair and held me for like an hour and helped me change into my pajamas. We decided to go to bed and he got me into my room and I told him to stay because I’m scared of staying at someone’s house i don’t know (who isn’t..) and so he said I’ll be right back and he tucked me in and kissed my forehead and left and then came back, and then I threw up all on the floor, and he cleaned it up. Then he got in bed with me, spooned me, and then one thing led to the next and we ended up having sex. He called me beautiful the whole time and we stopped because I freaked out since I had a boyfriend and he had a girlfriend. We went to sleep and the next day we didn’t talk much about what happened and stopped talking for weeks we never talked any. I broke up with my boyfriend because of it and he is still with his gf. About a week and so ago we finally worked together after some scheduling issues and we talked. It was weird but we went back to being back to what we were. Then he texted me for a little bit and then on Sunday we worked together and he asked to take me home, so I said yes. We got in his car and we just talked and talked and he was like I love you (friendly way) after I said something and I said no you don’t and he said yes I do I’ll kiss you on the cheek right now to prove it to you and then when we got to my house I said idk if I’m suppose to hug you or what so I hugged him and he said or we could just make out and I said mmm maybe another time and then he left and thats it. Also to add the whole time we were together in his car we talked about the whole sex thing finally and we said we didn’t regret it we just wish we weren’t in relationships and we just really talked about everything about that night and if it was good and the fact that he was kissing me after I threw up and just everything. Also I’m getting kicked out of my house and he said that we could get an apartment together because he needs somewhere to live too. I’m just really confused with what this is and if he even has feelings for me.. I know that I have some strong ass feelings for him and I haven’t felt like this since I was a teenager.. I don’t know if I should text him and tell him how i feel or just wait til Saturday and tell him in person or wait for him to talk to me and tell me how he feels?? I’m so freaking confused and idk what to do.. please no hateful comments! I was very intoxicated and felt like I was raped.. I’d never cheat on my boyfriend because I loved him so much and I talked to his sister after it happened and she said it was rape because I never gave consent but idk what it was..