Do i even have anymore tears left???

I know this is super annoying to read, but I’m in such a deep depressing hole. Recently i got out of a toxic relationship (yay, i know!). The thing is... i miss him so much. So much that i end up crying myself to sleep every night. Throughout the day I’m completely fine, as long as someone talks to me. During that relationship i ended up losing all my friends because they didn’t like him. I was stupid enough to let them walk alway. Now I’m left with no one by my side. You guys don’t even understand the pain I’m feeling. I’m starting to get suic*de thoughts every now and then. Trust me, i wouldn’t do any harm to myself. I look at my younger sisters and i know I’ve got to make it. I just don’t know, I’m just so hurt. On top of that, I’m getting my period soon so my emotions change every split second.