Afraid to try again...

Katie

I just found out last week that our baby does not have a heartbeat (after previously seeing it twice) at our 10 week appointment... immediately I told my husband I’m done. I don’t ever want to do this again... we have a 2 year old son and I have 2 older kids but this has been the most emotional situation ever and I HATE emotional situations. It was my first miscarriage. Has anyone else had these feelings and went on to change their mind? I’m considering asking my husband to have a vasectomy. I’m wondering if I’m crazy or if this was the confirmation I needed to just know I’m done? I’m also terrified of multiples after a miscarriage as I know it’s a bigger possibility... I haven’t ever wanted to have twins... not even a little bit. Also, we don’t have all the time in the world to try again, I am 33 and my husband is 53. If we were to try again it would need to be in the near future. I’m torn.