long story short... december 2016 i ended my relarionship with someone i loved... his mental health was deteriorating as was mine.. we stayed intouch... a few weeks later he tried to hang himself. i messagee him he was messaging me.. but his sister said i needed to let him go and let him get better that i was holding him back from recovering, so i cut all ties. ive been with someone elsefor over a year now... but i still think of him at random times, he pips into my head and it breaks my heart having to push it out of my head again... yesterday i coouldnt get him out of it and things were just constantly reminding me of him. my mum knows how i feel so i said to her (she still has him on fb but i deleted mine a long time ago) i said to her i just want ro know hes happy that imade the right decision. she told me hes married now.. i broke into pieces it hit me harder than i thought but i was happy for him so i sent him a message off my new number... literally just saying 'just to say congratulations its nice to see you happy' didnt say who it was, nothing. i got a message back saying 'is this who i think it is?' i didnt message back then got another saying 'emma? I know its you. i hope you're happy too thats all i ever wanted for you to be happy. its so good to hear from you. its been horrible having no contact with you it destroyed me. just know i never stopped caring and i always will care about you.' i feel aeful for messaging hin and before anyone says itsnotfair on his wife or my partner, im not putting this up for hate. im putting it up coz my mind is scrMbled!!