hiding out in rr

literally hiding out in the rr so my husband won't give me the baby while he gets to do his thing. I just can't do this 😢 I come on here all the time asking for advice but I still don't know what to do. I'm literally so afraid of my daughter choking. she's 13 months old and I feel like the worst mom. like she's never gonna learn how to eat. I give her the tiniest pieces of food and then seeing all these moms say how big of pieces they give their babies. & mine's no where near close to being that advanced... and of course its MY fault. it literally is. I'm pregnant and due in November and I don't want to feel this way with this baby. Having this constant fear of him choking when it's time for him to learn how to eat.. I gave my daughter spaghetti tonight and cut the noodles in half. then cut them up more bc i was afraid. She started gagging and coughed it back up but it scared me so much😔 I seriously hate feeling this way. I'm too paranoid like i wish there was a class to "learn how to feed a baby". I wish I lived with older family members or had a friend to talk to to say ITS OK. SHES FINE. instead I freak out and end up scaring her 😞