I LIKE MY EXES FRIEND!

Ugh is he off limits?? I have a crush on him hardddd & he likes me too Ive heard but he doesnt want to hurt his friend... i asked my parents they told me hes waiting to do it in an honorable way to his friend & His dad (who works with my moms friend) told her he “lights up” when he talks about me😍 im just scared to get my hopes up! I realllly like him & omfg I wish I never “ dated” his friend ... we really didnt have a relationship more like sex & fighting no dating or emotional connection honestly regret him ever asking me out ! he never changed etc,! & im 23 now so lifes gotta move passed a pot head gamer that only wants to hold me back!