SEX/RELATIONSHIP ADVICE

i just had sec with someone last night .. it has probably the worst sex i’ve ever had .. it was my fault mainly .. the guy was big but everytime he put it in i would feel a sharp paint in stomach which cause me to keep stopping and messing it up then the condom was lost so i wanted to give him head but the condom went missing and he forced my head down the entire time .. he was busy trying to f*ck my mouth instead of giving head and it wasn’t flowing so the head was horrible .. the. he just left me without saying anything.. but i still want to prove to him that i know what i’m doing but i’m not sure if he’s going to talk to me again . need help pls

i can’t help but to feel embarrassed