Grief and joy

Tonight I was driving home and listening to that new Dave Matthews Band song Samurai Cop about the birth of his child. I just couldn’t stop crying because I went to the hospital 14 years ago today to say goodbye to my dad as he was dying. We were both in a car accident and my feet were broken, so I’ve been dealing with some extra swelling in my feet since the beginning of this pregnancy and it’s been tough getting around. Anyway, this would be his first grandchild if he were still alive. All of my family is in different countries/continents, so I’m just feeling an extra dose of feelings tonight. But I’m still so excited to meet my little girl in about 3 months. Anyway, just wanted to share since there has been a lot on my mind this week with getting some moles biopsied and getting hit with fatigue and grief.