can't there just be one day

Can't there just be one day when I don't have to hear about the way my body looks?? In the past year I've gained a little bit of weight maybe like 20lbs even though I haven't eaten any different so I narrowed it down to my pcos acting up because I went off bc. So a few weeks ago I found out I was pregnant now I am 11 weeks pregnant and my husband is constantly telling me about the weight I've gained. Today he called me his broken wife because I have pcos and because I can't do anal because it hurt s, and he said well I am the one who broke you and made you fat. This has been goijng on for two weeks now to the point of I'm only eating once a day and I've lost 6lbs. So she. I when I went to my second doctors appointment he told me to stop Losing weight because I'm close to being done with my 1st trimester and I've lost weight not gained. But now I feel like a fat whale who can't eat because I don't want to be called fat anymore by my husband. It sucks because even though I've lost weight my pants are tighter. please no hate comments on how I've lost weight I am disappointed in myself for lettig it happen. my weight is 207lbs and I'm 5'4.

that is currently how I look