just venting...

I have 5 days till AF and I've been nitpicking every little thing my body is doing, grasping at straws, hoping and wishing this will be the cycle I will finally be pregnant with baby #2.

This is the first cycle since I started having them at 18 months OP that I've gotten blazing red Opks and I actually had great cm. We bd'd several times during my most fertile days...

BUT I'm a POAS obsessed person and have gotten negatives because it's still early. I just see so many people getting their early BFPs and want mine so badly!