very insecure about my vaginia

okaaaayyy so like..... im really insecure about my lower part lol, like i be scared to show it too my boyfriend and i feel really bad about it..😭 like i feel “childish” but TO ME.. I think it looks so weird i even thought about getting surgery on it tbh. we been dating for almost 2 years and im still scared to show him. like when we have sex i kinda try to cover it up and stuff 😒😩 and i always wanna have sex in the dark ... even when he eats it. i be feeling bad asf. 😒 wish i wasnt so insecure about it. he says he seen it or whatever and that it looks like that... (the one i circled) i kinda felt some type of way tbh cus its not even all OUT like that.... and one time he told me he dont like when the 🐱 is “meaty” like that .....