long hard pregnancy and it’s only the beginning

i’ve been having a really hard time through this pregnancy. I found out I was pregnant the day before we buried my grandmother, then just a few days later we lost a dear friend who happened to be my ex boyfriend. he was my boyfriends friend all through high school and I met my boyfriend through him. they lived together for eight months (up until 3 weeks before he died). I dated him on and off for five years, all the way up until just this past december. it has rocked me. on top of that, I then found out my father relapsed and is using drugs again. everything is just piling up and i’m having a very hard time coping. i’ve developed prenatal depression and can hardly leave my house. i’m only 9 weeks and this has all happened. I know I need to speak to my doctor about how i’m feeling but i’m terrified.