Cheated on multiple times after 7 years together

So I’ve been with my highschool sweetheart for 7 years now. We had a kid together, he’s about to start kindergarten. We had a miscarriage on February, I got pregnant again (not planed) on June & had to have an abortion because my SO & I were not in a good place, he left me that same week.

I was broken & devastated, we were about to move into our own apartment together right before he left me. So it’s been less then a month since he left me (but he still wanted sex, just no commitment). I was stupid & gave him what he wanted because I loved him more than I loved myself... worst mistake ever

I was sleeping over at his place this weekend because he asked me too, he ended up going out with friends later Saturday night, then on Sunday he admitted to kissing some girl he met at the bar. (Even though we technically weren’t together it hurt) But it got me curious. So I begged him to be honest with me & tell me if he had ever been unfaithful to me in all these years.

Well he admitted to sleeping with multiple girls on at least 7 occasions...

That my friends literally destroyed me, I waited for him to get back upstairs. Put my gym clothes on, and even though it was raining & they’re was thunder & lightning I could not breathe nor think clearness inside this FUCKING LIAR’S HOUSE.

At 11:13pm I opened the door, closed it & ran as fast & hard as I could. I just kept thinking and hating on him so bad for making me feel like shit, when he is the only piece of shit in my life. I felt worthless, like I waisted 7 years of my life with him & giving him my all. Just for him to fuck other Hoe’s on the side & lie about it.

I hate him with every inch of my body, I don’t want anything to do with him. I just want him to disappear out of my life for good. (But we have a kid together & this is just terrible)

I’m sorry for the long post, I have no friends & just really needed to tell someone.