Friends life choices Rant!!

Ok, I have PCOS, I've been trying to conceive for about 4 years now and have miscarried at a very young age. I don't have the insurance to actually go to a doctor and get on the medications I need. I've been losing weight and eating healthier and all that. I have a friend who recently found out she is pregnant. 😤😤😤😤😤😡😡😡😡she doesn't track her periods doesn't doesn't use condoms and isn't on birthcontrol....... I already know she's gonna get an abortion, It kills me but, hey, not my body. She forgot about my PCOS and everything and just asked me to go with her to her Ultrasound..... I wanna go cause I'm the only friend she has that won't tell her that she's a horrible person and it's gonna be tough on her. But at the same time.... I know it's gonna hurt me. But honestly, I kinda just want to strangle her and tell her to live with her mistakes. I know I'm a bad person but dammit!